Today I signed up for NaNoWriMo. That is the shorthand for National Novel Writing Month. I have been told a couple of times that I should write a book. In particularly a romance novel. I love to read. It is like water or food to me. I have at least one book or my Nook with me at all times, so of course I have toyed around with the idea of writing a short story or novella. However, I have lacked the courage to actually try it. Until now. I am partially blogging about this today to hold myself a little more accountable. I WILL do this and I WILL finish and if I don’t, then that leaves you, my few readers, the opportunity to give me the WTF face. See? It works out for everyone.
I suppose I should explain a little bit better what NaNoWriMo is. I will quote the brief description they have on their website:
“National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo) is a fun, seat-of-your-pants approach to creative writing. On November 1, participants begin working towards the goal of writing a 50,000-word novel by 11:59 p.m. on November 30. Valuing enthusiasm, determination, and a deadline, NaNoWriMo is for anyone who has ever thought fleetingly about writing a novel.”
I named today’s entry Getting Out of My Comfort Zone because in doing this I am pushing myself. This is something that I don’t do enough of. At some point in my life, I have lost a lot of my confidence that I used to have. I used to be fairly fearless. I would try most things at least once. What happened to that girl? Well, this is my first step to get her back. Make myself do something that I have secretly always wanted to do, but was too scared to try. At least doing it this way I will have help, pep talks, and resources. Mr. Texas is on board, so I will have his support at home.
Over the years, it has been easy to put my needs on the back burner. Especially as our family grew. I have learned over the years that it is important to feed your own soul as well as those around you. If you don’t, you will lose yourself. Learning this and doing it though, are two different things. The last three years we were in Hawaii were even easier to let myself slide. I was not working, so I let myself quit learning. It is hard to do, but I need to remember to push myself too, not just others. I need to remember to take care of myself, so that one day when I look around and it is just Mr. Texas and I, I am not wondering what it is I want to do or where I want to be. I love my children, and right now they are my world. To some extent they always will be. But I also want them to be able to go out and explore, do awesome things, and be amazing people without having to worry about me. Don’t get me wrong, I want them to worry about me and come home, but I don’t want them to feel like they can’t follow their own dreams.
Have you ever felt this way? Like you have lost some vital part of yourself? If so, have you pushed yourself out of your comfort zone to get back to the place you need to be? I am curious to hear your stories. As for me, I think this will be a good first step. I am going to bust out of my comfort zone with guns blazing and write myself a book! So, here we go! I need to start thinking of what kind of story I want to write. Perhaps that romance novel that some think I would be good at? We shall see!
*If you are interested in participating in NaNoWriMo, you can sign up or get more information at their website: http://nanowrimo.org/ If you decide to join up, let me know and we can be writing buddies!